Today is a busy day. Hubby need to bring his car for service and I'm suppose to go to the service center with him in another car so he leave his car there and drive me back home.. Service center took longer than usual today for hubby's turn so reach home at 11++ (out at 10.30? Not that long really). And today hubby book a time slot at 1pm to go collect our dream house key.. It's finally done... *teary eyed* and asked if I would also join. So why not??
So reach home, pumped out milk (like so little, still 2oz from Alivia's birth till now, sigh...) inform mil I need to go out again.. She said ok
This is my FIRST time collect keys so I didn't know it takes that long.. Checking everything with the developer and alarm contractor..... 3hours++! Then I went out early to wait for Hubby as there's meeting in office so I actually went out for 4+ hours? Damn engorged and go home to a cry baby cannot straight go pump..
Okok off track a bit. Well everyday I take out frozen breastmilk(bm) for Alivia... Last week I was using the bm from breastmilk bags so mil can easily recognize which to give if I gone out. Yesterday was the last bag so today it's those bottles.
Now, as I pump milk and was taught not to mix bm at different temperature so the fridge have like 2-3 half full bottles of freshly pumped bm... And my frozen bm I labeled date on them with masking tape.
When I came back home I FOUND MIL HAD USED MY FRESH BM INSTEAD OF MY FROZEN!!
How heartache!!!! I already have lack of bm, you used my fresh bm!!!??? Yes I know la, frozen or not, it's still for my baby.. But hello, EVERY FUCKING DAY you see so many half full bottles of bm there, obviously those are fresh right?? USE YOUR FUCKING BRAIN LAAAAA!!!
"Oh I don't notice one oh! I see got milk I give lo! I no time lo! And your baby crying there so loud make me rushing" WHAT THE FUCK???
Fine, get over it.. I'll just have 1 less bottle to freeze today. (Already pumped lesser today cos went out so long) those Un used bottle I keep for tomorrow lo...
Since she is so busy today those bottles of bm she used she just soak with water and left there for me to wash.. You know what, those water are WATERY WHITE in color. Meaning, she never empty that bottle properly before soaking it.. HOW WASTING...!!
I already have so little milk, can you be nice and help me save??? You nag me for wasting water(no I didn't), waste electric(didn't too), waste this that NOW YOU WASTE MY MIIIIILLLLLLKKKK?!?!?!?!!!??!
On another pissed scenario..
Not sure why Alivia is cranky today, maybe her mummy were out too long today she misses mummy's smell... And this week she got cough so her appetite wasn't that well and always didn't finish her milk/hard to get her drink bm...
And Annabell is still in potty train so while I'm coo-ing Alivia to drink, Annabell sitting in her potty.. And she got up! With shit sticking there and about to fell! I'm holding Alivia who is finally drinking so I have to ask mil for help to either clean here there or bring her to wash.. SHE CAN TELL ME TO LEAVE ALIVIA AND FINISH OFF BELL MYSELF!!
Alivia is already cranky, if I put her down she cry loudly... I know she is just washing something in the kitchen and it's not important. Can't she come out and help??????????
When Alivia cries in her swing and I am slower to attend her, she calls me. And ofcourse I'll answer her "I'm coming.." (I tend not to answer baby cries asap now.. 1)baby need to learn self soothing 2)baby need to know cry is not to mean mummy come faster to pick her up. )
And lately she is more DEAF, and she can't hear me and calls again. IT'S SO FUCKING ANNOYING!!!!!
I'm not deaf. I can hear my baby cry and I'm preparing her bm in the kitchen!! Not doing something else! Just STOP CALLING ME!! Baby's voice already stressful. And her calling make me even more stressed!!!
And now she wants me to put baby down and attend Annabell??! What the fuckkk? When she doesn't wanna help she said let baby cry a bit. Won't kill her. When she is annoyed baby crying, CHING EEEEEEE!! CHING EEEEEEE!!!
SHUP UP LAA!! FUCKING ANNOYING!!
This is mentally bullying me. You won't see her calling Irene like that! Why me?????????