Friday, June 16, 2017

Another Update of My Life...

Can you imagine I started this blog at 21 years old and "mg keng mg gok" its already 10years!!

Sadly the main purpose of my blog (which is to share my happiness of travelling and life then) changes to become a platform for me to rant my anger, hatred and sadness.. things I have to express out or else I'll go crazy and theres no other place.. Perhaps my ego is too high to rant to people around me, or just didnt wanna worry them.. hahahaha but funny thing is, ranting to a public blog is OK cos people may or may not know me to judge me (at least face to face) and nobody have time for blogs nowadays anyways... hehehehehe

Being having a huge ego, and also self control of not letting everyone know too deep about me and my problems (I dont know, stalker?) (yes call it ego too) sometimes I dont post my stories, occasionally I still update my blog, but they ended up as "saved as drafts" but at least I ranted out..

More blabberings again..  lol

The most famous title in this blog now is probably my Public bank branch codes.. heheh and many googler contributed to it too.. haha. at least something is useful in here. Once upon a time it was my Coke Museum visit in atlanta.. but too many people "visited" that page, from all over the world and I had since retrived it having felt uncomfortable so many people viewed it >D

So update of my life.... ... ... Mom to 2 girls, 4 and 2.5 as of today, still working with husband albeit it wasn't fun, money wasn't enough(for me to spend like how it used to be), loooong hours, no holidays...sometimes face bad mood from OWN HUSBAND!! lol 

But somehow as I stepped into the 3-0ss, I have a strong believe I can't just sit at the office, and sulk with my salary..I thrive to achive more!! (I sincerely want to help my husband so quiting is not what Im gonna do unless I became a Millionaire, although there were tough times.... I may have thought to quit many times.. but a sincere heart to help my husband Im planning to stay.. unless the husband ask me to quit and have lotsa $$$ for me >D) and how I wish I have plenty of time to make more $$ by myself.. there are many things I could do... or buy... You know laaa everything got expensive, gst, inflation.. how much is enough right?

And being in my 3-0s.. Anti Aging has become my concern.. 30 ady maa.. wrinkles and old age.. and with my lastest craze of K-drama.. dark eye circle T__T (When else can I catch my drama when Im busy during the day and before my kids is asleep??)

When you talk anti aging with me before my 3-0, I will be intersted but not on top of my priority.. Now, I want that machine that tightens my flabby tummy skin, I want that all in one skin care robot that put on customized serums and moisturizers for me, I want that lifting serum that LIFTSSS my cheeks!!! I want that supplement that keeps me energized and clear my toxic and regain my youthful body! I want that! I want this!!

So so many things I wanna OWNNN!!!

Hahahaha... Well.. I guess enough of blabbering for me today.. Hopefully next update I can tell you I manage to OWN THEM ALL and thrived!! 

tata!

Monday, May 9, 2016

F*ck Mother's Day... >(

He post a picture of happy mother's day in his wechat moments.. and in his fb... >( this kind of social wannabe, potraying such a good person la wishing everyone HMD..

HE DIDNT WISHED ME OR HIS MOTHER LOR... WTF

Im not pissed he didnt wish lar, 3rd year already... but Im pissed him demanding me like a MAID...

Bell is sitting on the table with him, eating hotdogs, and he sat there with her watching his ipad, and I sitting on the sofa mending my things (tv) and he can demand me to get a cup of water to bell... Why cant he move a bit and get it???

Ipad dramas can be paused but no, im the maid!

Sommore MOTHER'S DAY I toast bread and made milo for him ... not the other way round meh!!! 
I willing do so if its been ask nicely, not demanding like a maid!!!! >(   #sopissed
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He ask me to call unifi and ask how long more the contract for taming, WHY CANT HE CALL IT HIMSELF??? how hard to call 100 and press BAHASA MALAYSIA??

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Night time BIL ask to join for dinner, since I didnt go back seremban to celebrate with my mum, and so we went.. I took out my ipad for bell, but I played a bit of games first before passing to bell, and he can sternly warn me not to play such things there???? is it illegal to play games?? Its cooking dash!!! WTF? He read his soccer news can???

and the whole dinner he is so pissed looking.. he didnt even want to order food!

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We cannot talk nice conversations anymore, its either he turn the topic to make it his point, or just annoy/irritated I've talked.

What have I done wrong???

I told him I need to go times square and he can forget about it and wanted to yumcha with a property agent, then I was just telling him there is a nice new cafe open near us, we shall go visit it sometime and he got pissed WTF

In the end I go Times Square didnt get my things, I have to accompany him to buy his slippers WTF

ALL HE WINS LA!! 

Tuesday, April 5, 2016

Random wechat FLIRTERS WTF

How should I start... I am pissed..

This is not the first time. Caught him once wechat FLIRTING with the china masseuse (but from the conversation the masseuse just want business, since he is not in China = no biz = no layan... ) fine~ i kept quiet

(googled: and if hangky panky happen in massage center, heavy fine and passport blacklist if caught *thumbs up*)

I noticed something weird these two days.. he will quickly close the chat when he saw me approch.. like hiding something.. Although its written in Chinese, I am sure they are not talking business.. :(

So choice: Ignore or check. Ignore it as a normal chit chat. Perhaps he want to destress.. As long as he brings in the meat and not get caught by me... ignore.......................

But... I cant do it..

"Sikit sikit lama lama jadi bukit" Normal chit chat now.. Yes random person(but FEMALE!).. who knows later chat till enter the head, flirting become infatuation and they plan to meet up?  What happen next? And who knows where is the location of this chatters? He have to work outstation every month.. few outstations.. and overseas trips.. his brother who follows him overseas may or may not know about it. And just say if it happens and BIL knows and dont tell me how???? Who knows where he will meet some random strangers and till what extend? hotel rooms is not expensive nowadays... I've seen much true stories.. Say outstation but actually gone holiday with lovers, or lovers follow along in business trips.

Prevention is better than cure~~ there no cure for this anyway..

You see, we are in a business. But we are not rich. When you have more income, you wanna live better, you want a better car, a better house, better school for the kids.. better food, better clothes and shoe to be on par with the business "expats". But because we are in business, its it is always better to be safe and have some backup of $ and so, entertainment towards me and the kids is lesser(i mean expensive holidays) and his reason is "gotta work or else no income".. "gotta keep some $ cos economy is low" "kids is still too young to travel far"

I trust him, I pitied him, I made myself to save...But what if those "extra" income is used to entertain lovers?

I regret everly forever.

I help him to work with low pay. Yes, I have no commitment, and he brings in the meat. But low pay really makes me insecure. And I dont have much savings to survive... What if D day suddenly comes (touch wood)?? but what if? How do I survive when I cant even afford to buy a house?

What job am I capable of?? Everything have to be restarted.. and you need lotsa $$ and support to do so isnt it?


So free to chat with random strangers, why not help me with the house chores? Wash the clothes/fold the clothes and clean the dishes and mop the floor la! Why should I be the one doing it?

And he wanna win over this situation!! Like I dont know his strategy already!

he was like "why cannot just chat with friends is it?"

THEY ARE RANDOM PEOPLE! NOT FRIENDS YET! DONT EVEN KNOW HIS NAME!!

Means if I quietly allow him to chat with friends, means its a green light to continue "random chatting" ????

So if he does that, can I random chat with guys randomly too?? No? And he said I also no give him face and chat with guys..

COME CHECK MY PHONE... WHICH GUY I FLIRT WITH NOW?? I DELETE NO CONVERSATIONS UNLIKE YOU!!!

To double confirm, I checked my whatsapp.. WM is elaine's husband, who needed to rant his feeling about elaine.

CY is someone else husband too! And cos he said he got pass by the office so he want to invite me lunch, which I have declined.

JW just wished me for bday and CNY..

WHO AM I FLIRTING WITH NOW???

98% of my chat are FEMALES..now how, wanna say im LESBIAN Mou??????!!!!

Who is trying to phyco who now??

bloody asshole!!

I am going to koh samui, and I am spending his money. Who cares!


Thursday, October 22, 2015

Happy 29th Birthday to me~~

Its midnight now... Happy birthday to me... here I am lying on my bed, unable to sleep... babies beside me...

Nobody bothered to stay till midnight to wish me... no surprises no gift.. snoring got laah.. *sigh* is it caused by old age we no longer be bothered whose birthday? is it cos we are married for FIVE years that birthday wishes and love is no longer important? *SIGH*

Anyway....

Something I would like to pen down on my 29th birthday..

I'm spending my birthday ALONE.. In osotto... Which is something I've planned since last month..

Away from work, away from kids, always from husband.. It's a pampering day for my own self. If everything goes well, so will next year birthday be.. Another pampering day for only me...
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Sometimes I felt the life decision I made sucks. And that's how I'm not contented in this life anymore..

If I have insisted to get OUR OWN HOME before marriage.. Life probably is better now.. I'll be MARRIED to my husband, not his family as well.. Which will make me more sane...

If I have not been so h**rny and lazy and san that condom.. I don't need to get married that early. Probably get to enjoy a few more years of single life happier with a boyfriend. And maybe a few more years in KE too..

I shouldn't have help my husband in his biz.. Not that I'm a bad wife.. But this business have taken us apart... All the stress from the business, brothers, workload, responsibilities making us drifting further.

At times I have bad thoughts of getting a divorce and freeing myself from this self-brought torturous life..

Marriage.. Sometimes I do wonder what is it for apart from binding us legally as husband and wife.. I was waaaaay happier before i got married..
Marriage is like you're automatically bound to do the extra house chores and paperwork of your husband.. And I didn't see that in our "marriage contract"

And since this kids.. Life is less sweet and excited as before marriage

Marriage makes a man(some men) think it's time to be more responsible with life and hence.. Less spending in entertainment.. More investment in a better life.. More savings=less fun

Good.. But not happy..

I don't get it, is it only my husband or everyone is like that?

Marriage makes guys think they have won the courtship and so, no need to put effort in loving the wife more, surprising her, showering more love... Which I think it's nessesary to keep the fire burning... Lifetime..

Marriage means you can be pouty or frowny to your wife and speaking less lovingly to her and she can't do anything cos she married to him... Unless the D word comes over... Which everything is too late to recover...

Yes I know social media is where we show everybody the happy parts. So I see people spending fortunes to go holiday overseas and get a hinge of jealousy. Yes we may not know probably she had arguements with her husband a day before, or work like shit at home before the trip, or family stress upon her before this trip.. But still.. Flight to LA and JW Mattiot hotel? Fuh..

But that jealously turn to sadness that my passport was not as fully used like last time. Jet setting to so many countries.. Enjoying life.. The the self questioning will appear asking did I marry the wrong guy? I should have choosen xxx instead.. I shouldn't have resign that job that at times make me unhappy and lonely but still get to let me fly around, shop around and earn MORE money...

Some incidents just make me think. Why me?? Why must it be MY DUTY to laundry the clothes, iron the clothes, filing the bills, make milk for my kids, cooing them to sleep, settling their tantrumous cries, cleaning the house.. Etc.. When I also have a full time office job? Where are my alone time? I cant even stay back slightly later in office to surf the internet! and I cant even do it at home! What life is this???? Am I not belong to myself anymore once im married with kids?????

Why I should contemplate with earning a mere 2k job and should be contemplating when ITS NOT ENOUGH???

Why should I save and spend less because I earn so less???

Why why why.. This questions will never get a satisfactory answer.. It's just things you "should" do when YOU ARE MARRIED...

FUCK MARRIED LIFE.

Friday, September 25, 2015

The Fu*king Stubborn A$$hole


So many annoying/irritatng things happened! and I didnt have place to rant nor time to complain!! OMG..!!

#11 YBIL

for the past 3 weeks or so I have to tumpang him cos his Kenari really old ady.. keep dead engine and no aircond.. fatty needs aircon.. and so his BROTHERS (actually my hubby suggested...cos fixing that kenari will cost a bomb T_T ) decided to get him a new car (35 years old still need BROTHER to decide and SPONSOR him(deposit) a car!! WTF!!!)

[FACT 1: Do you know my 1.6cc car cannot accelerate up 120km/h WITH HIM INSIDE??! Normally can speed up quiet fast]

And I beh tahan he so like a kiddo when he wanted a MYVI! (his bro suggest axia cos its new model and cheaper... after all brother sponsor deposit he pays the rest of the loan...) the way he said he wanted a myvi... OMG...! #behtahan

Then cos loan approval took like more than 2 weeks he like nearly everyday ask me why the perodua didnt call yet, when can get the car? and I have to help him call! GOSH..

Nevermind... Alison very kind hearted de.. I called.. I helped.. I fetch him to Perodua center to submit is details summore...(its on the way home anyway)

What I cant tahan (and no where no one to rant cos he is in the office, he is in MY CAR, he is at home, he is my husband's brother!! #frustratingenough) is from the moment he decided to get a purple myvi, he eye-ing EACH AND EVERY MYVI THAT WE PASSED BY... Co-incidently the first week, we didn't spot any purple myvi and he keep asking why can't see this car color.. then he finally start seeing some purple ones and keep asking why is the design look different.. (the fact he couldn't really remembers how the new car look like excactly but keep asking out loudly annoys the heck out of me... in today's technology, one can google the lastest picture or when we go the center, snap a pic of the car la! but no, he never have the mind to google, and he FORGETS to snap a pic BOTH TIMES we go to the center.... -________-"  )

The problem is when he keep asking everytime and it starts to get ANNOYING!!! Cant he just think it in heart and shut up! (summore I dont know why I find his voice irritating...)

Ok la maybe he gets over excited cos he finally gets a new car... but I have no idea why it annoys me So So So much!

Even when the car arrives.. his excitedness ANNOYS ME TO DEATH!! 

No. Im not jealous he got a myvi.. (Hey..! what car am I driving?) He got so precious of his car, he said he haven't drive above 90km/h... like really??? And he willing to WALK 3 blocks away to Mr DIY to get his car accessories..(he is so fat and heavy he dont like to walk too far.. he even ask ah onn(another staff) to tapau him food (mostly economy rice... cos economy...lol... and Onn... well, took what Onn like and now finally he willing to walk to tapau cos he wants MORE MEAT MORE RICE) And he got kancheong when he found his carpets got lots of sands from his own shoes, he wanted to go get a car wash.. I that time so nicely told him not to waste money somemore.. In the end, he bought a RM33 in-car vacumm.. lol.. I actually have one I got it cheaper but hardly use(and I kept in the office lol...) cos I clean my shoes and TELL my passenger to clean thiers too before stepping into my car. EXCEPT THE FATTY, TOLD ONCE, TOLD TWICE.. THIRD TIME STILL COULDN'T BE BOTHERED BECAUSE ITS NOT HIS CAR... MOTHER-FUCKER...And when I told him just clean your shoe before stepping in, you know what's his pariah reason??
"if raining how you clean your shoes? the more you brush more sand right?"

OH MY FU*KING GOD PLEASE HELP ME MAKE HIM DIE FASTER GO AWAY FROM MEEEEEE!!! 

So I just didnt bother to let him know I have one and let him buy his. ;)

And hello... SO DUMB!!!!  Dont know what sign is this/that at the dashboard ask me, DONT KNOW HOW TO GOOGLE AH????!!!!  ASK ME FOR WHAT????

And so HOO-HAA when some cars didnt want to give way.. complain people nearly hit his car lar, and that time was "helping" me fetch annabell.. so no need 2nd time... HELLO!! THIS IS KUALA LUMPUR!! YOU THINK YOU KAMPUNG AH???

So precious of his car, dont dare drive far somemore... hahahaha

And SO STUPID! SO SO DUMB!! DUMB AND HIS MANY STUPID REASONING!! His brother helped him adjusted the side mirror to his brother's view.. doesnt mean he cant adjust it to HIS OWN VIEW RIGHT???? a Car nearly hit him cos he couldnt see it.. OMG... Thank goodness I was in the car.. GOSH.... 





 #12 YBIL
Him again!! He is getting more and more daring and doing his own way.. I already close one eye how he like to control EVERYBODY (except his brothers) and Ms tung[accounts] (cos ms tung dont make conversations with him, he probably shy to talk to WOMAN, and he know nothing about accounts, hell he couldn't even pronouce her name #slaphead) he even wants to control me!! How you asked?

1) courier guy comes around 1.30pm.. sometimes when things get busy I forgot to prepare the parcels on time, but no worries, courier man is friendly with me he dont mind to wait 5minutes or so for me to prepare.. but he like to "REMIND ME" to prepare the parcels before the courier guys comes.. which I dislike cos I know my work.. who are you to command me? You are no boss to me and not someone I respect...

2) EVERY FUCKING DAY by 5.30pm, ask me have I back up my systems. To "PREPARE" me to turn off the computer ON TIME to LEAVE on time. Previously cos I am supposed to leave early to fetch Annabell from day care.. But I know my responsibility LAA! I know how to arrange my time!!! If I cant fetch and Hubby is around and available, Hubby will fetch OKAY!!! WTF.. If hubbs gone outstation/overseas, I CAN MANAGE MY TIME TO FETCH OK. The daycare can wait. WHY MUST YOU BE IN CONTROL OF ME???? Hell, he even COMMAND ah onn to TURN OFF THE COMPUTER BY 5.45PM... WHAT THE FUCK??? Who sits in front of computer who turns if off whenever he wants la right? When he sits for that computer (they rotate their duty) he turn off the computer by 5.30!! That computer I connect to the internet-radio!! So WE ARE ALL LEFT WITH 30minutes of silent moments-radioless.. OMG.... #hitwall

 #13 YBIL

 So now to the main reason of this blog post.. I knew this thing happen earlier.. but I found he is getting more and more daring to do it his way... and recently it affected my work.. so I must let da boss know..

Intro: His duty include packing orders and putting on our own warranty stickers to each item. These stickers are special made where is so fragile it cannot be removed nicely once stuck to something. And in the size of 6mm diameter, they are numbered with 12 months of the year and we have to use a marker pen to dot the months/year and stick it to our product following the current month we are in. Get it?

So during "slow" times, sometimes he prepare our products with stickers so when order comes, less work needed to be done. Sometimes by last week of the month, he will start sticking stickers dated for the next month. Eg: End of september but sticking October stickers already. Reason is those stocks are prepared for next month order. Im fine by that.. until this month I keep hearing him COMMANDING ah onn to dot October sticker (he dont like to do it, he commands people to do it. So now no more malay girl or junior staff, he bullies ah onn... by age, ah onn is junior, by work, ah onn knows more than him, more capable than him.. but he deem he's more senior cos its his brother's company!!) and THERE ARE 2 WEEKS BEFORE END MONTH!!!

And last week, I have to do a LARGE credit note (and CN nowadays so troublesome, have to refer previous invoice, thanks to GST!!) and from seeing the CN stocks, it's dated May... but when I search for May invoice, its not there, but in APRIL invoice... HOW FRUSTRATING IS THAT?????!!!!! I'm talking like about 50-60 items to be CN-ed!!! I took 4 hours to do the CN that day and still couldn.t finish!!

So I know asking him is useless. he will give me more useless reasons.. I straight told Da Boss about it and ask da boss to tell his brother off. He nodded in front of Da boss but after boss gone, he did the same thing again!! So that day after work(tuesday) I kept ALL the Dotted October stickers... and also inform hubbs

Next day, he ask ah Onn where are the stickers, ah onn said I kept them. So when I arrived office, he ask for it from me, I said stick September first, and he got pissed and gave me silent treatment whole day... which Im soooo happy (sorry to say but sorry no sorry) nobody COMMANDING ME the whole day!! #jumpswithjoy
Then Thursday is a public holiday and today (friday) once I arrive office he asked me again in a more angry tone, to take out the October warranty stickers, it is only 25th of the month.. 5 more days to go.. what's so big deal about sticking OCTOBER STICKERS?? I told him to ask his brother, (which I know he wont) and he said "ok lo no need stick the products lo" (which ofcourse he wont...lol)

But I notice he later DOT HIS OWN OCTOBER STICKER!! Oh Gosh.. how I felt that time!!! So pissed, annoyed... angry!! WHY IS HE SO FUCKING STUBBORN....!!!! HE JUST WANT TO WIN AND CONTINUE HIS BULL HEAD MIND TO STICK OCTOBER STICKER. I cannot take it anymore and told Hubbs and Da Boss about it.. At least I let it out of my mind.. Let them settled it.

Im not being stubborn, but Im helping the company. Date the sticker earlier we are giving ONE EXTRA MONTH OF WARRANTY TO THE CUSTOMER! THAT'S WHAT.. 13MONTHS WARRANTY????!! Who is at lost now??? The COMPANY!!! 

But if so the Lee's decided to side their brother, just ONE Word from them.. so be it. I no eye see.. Not to say, but if so happen I will plan my resignation....