EMo! Angry!!! ARRRGHHGHHGHHHH!!!

Facebook force me to use time line..... Fine... so I wanna add a nice picture of the latest me as cover.. and I had NONE!!!!! Latest pic of me, CNY! or self shot pic that I feel my face too wide! I have no nice picture taken lately.... how sad....

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I know I shouldn't keep thinking negative.. but I don't know... I keep having negative thoughts!

I just don't feel like going to ching ming in Pahang tomorrow... I wanna stay home and sleep! Stay home and do nothing..!!  can or not?

I do not want to see the same face I hate to see now. Everyday see.. Sunday also have to see... Irritating, Annoying Unreasonable 30 year old kiddo...! WTF! Got u say no I say! ARGH!!!

I wanna go away!!!!!!!!

I miss flying.... :*(

I dont miss the job.. I miss travelling... T_T

I see everybody in fb... new destination.. new activities.. I wanna join tooo.... T_T

I miss Korea... yes I do... I miss four seasons.... 

I miss flying to USA... yes.. apart from the long hours... but I miss shopping their local brands and factory outlets...

I regret not finding out that joaan, micheals and many other craft stores.. exist before I stop... or purchased some sorta craft machine then...

I jealous see ppl fly to SFO... a place I havent set foot yet..

I miss wearing my winter wear and boots...

I regret to not getting myself a Chanel bag before I stop....

I miss enjoying my LO and DO alone doing my thing... I miss pampering my own self alone... 

Enjoying high life and higher pay... traveling to different countries and cities... shop what I want, buy what I want..

Times passes by very fast when you fly too...

Pro and cons... but still.. It's better than saving up large sum of $ harder than previously and pay own ticket and cheap hotel and travel only like once a year..

Europe? probably once every 10 years??

I wish to have a chance to fly again... maybe not with KE,... but now that Im married... leaving too far from Hubby is not a nice thing....  like I wanna go SQ or Cathay.. but that means going far away for a long time w/o Hubby... dont think I can miss that...

Im 26 already... age limit coming soon... and I doubt Hubby let me fly... but I realy really miss!!

SIGH.....

I know.. emo post again.. Im emo today.... emo and angry... I dont know how to let my frustration out... how to settle things that are not all in my hand.

Once a month...

I noticed my blogging rate now is kinda once a month... well... on a positive side... better than none...

On a sad note... a bit down today when P came... I thought I was pregnant... sigh... it's like a week late.. I noticed a little spotting a few weeks back that I thought its the "implantation"... then my tummy suddenly lower bottom bloated.. I thought.................... sigh................... :'(

But then I have no sickness (thank godness) or cravings.. well... I snack most of the times in office.. Im not sure how pregnancy cravings goes.. And the bloating went off like last week.. and this morning I have some kinds of uneasiness symptoms in my tummy..... 

Already having thoughts when will be my baby's due date.. perhaps a 12.12.12 baby... :( maybe I put my hopes to high to get a dragon baby... Hubby ask me to take it slow... dont make myself stressed.. but how to not stress every month anticipating when my period will come or not??

Sigh.. I dunno la... No dragon... snake lor..

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No crafts project done so far... Im losing hope on my 2012 resolution.. but yet im still spending $$ buying scrapbooking tools to hoard.. and still wanting more.. >.< last month spend around RM170 buying something from ebay.. this month spend similar amount buy punchers and embelisments on sale in joann and s&c.. >.<

Still DREAMING to get myself a slice machine and a photo printer... like doing a BIG business whereas nothing had started! 

Horrible.. then also have the feeling to buy more stuff.. made Hubby go IOI last weekend to buy me a cotton dress and a skirt from Mango Outlet after feeling I have no new work clothes...1 skirt got an iron burnt mark not sure by me or the maid, 1 nice high waisted snake skin pattern got a tear.. (tho mended.. still feel... emmm...) 2 pants are too small for my size now... another skirt looks weird on me due cos im just too fat >.<

Wanna dress more glam to work but actually apart from entertaining myself there's no purpose cos no 1 to see or admire... wheares the other 1 only wear casual to work... but every Friday and Saturday when I make myself a casual work wear day... I spent quite a few minutes sitting on the bed looking at my wardrobe thinking what should I wear.. I have worn this, I have worn that... I just washed these, I just ironed these... that too sexy OTT for office... etc... >.<

Buy more clothes, no place to put.. fashion nowadays are all body hugging and Im not in my confidence now to wear body hugging clothes... argh... I just have lots to complain... bear with me... or click somewhere else...

Better stop here.. Taaa...